My Heart Still Beats

I’m sitting silently at home again with thoughts of you

Another night wasted worrying about what you could do.

Sometimes I forget you’re human—you have problems of your own.

But I’m vividly aware you are building a life that I’m not in;

I’m pathetically holding on to the only feelings I have ever known

Treating life like a chessboard, a game I’ll never win.

And when I hear one of those songs that remind me of you,

My heart stops, freezing me in memories of a better day,

One where I could say your name and you could say mine too.

Years pass but still thoughts of your heartbeat stays.

And while I don’t even have the words to say hello,

He greets you with a smile, a bitter twist to the knife.

Sometimes just seeing you makes me want to die—

I’m starting to think I’ll stay like this for my whole life.

         DannYetman

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