I'm Left Alone

I’m left on this night wallowing in my own guilt,

Walking silently down streets with no names—

I’m certain the sun is never bound to rise.

With your name still sliding off my tongue

My hands tremble—lust takes control of me.

I once had shame but I left it all behind,

Thrown on a pile of dreams that I’ll never see.

The flames tear me down as my persona dies,

The clues are everywhere within my mind

But I have no idea who I am.

With each footstep I take my feet shake,

Until I’m sure that I’ll never make it home again.

I want my heart to stop beating,

So I stop wasting it on childish thoughts.

I’m haunted by the moments I’ve left behind,

And the happiness that was never shared.

I once tried to be a good person but seemed to fail,

Now I’m the case for the mistakes I’ve made.

So for one more night I’m left alone with guilt,

As I remain cognitive of what I’ve never felt.

     DannYetman

www.yetmanpoetry.blogspot.com 

I'm Just Me

I don’t want to walk alone in this world forever,

But I don’t want you to follow where I’m going.

I thought I could keep you close to me

But happiness is fickle when we feel so lonely,

I am the memory that wasn’t built to last,

A statute for the broken hearted.

You told me to take it all in stride

But I still can’t believe how you slipped away.

I can pretend to smile just for you,

Or act like my ego isn’t slightly bruised.

If you just tell me where I need to go—

If you just remind me of who I am

Then I wouldn’t feel the need to disappear

Everyone in the world is looking for a friend

And I guess that I can understand.

But you didn’t have to act like that is all we are

Two strangers on our separate quest for happiness

It meant the world to me, but you have already forgotten

And I can’t even take a breathe

Without being reminded of how you have forgotten.

Too scared to be angry I hold onto jealousy

But I guess it doesn’t really matter

Because I’m just me.

Happiness is fickle; somebody always ends up hurt,

The worst kind of pain lingers and sets—

I don’t want you to see me fail when I give my all,

But I don’t want to fill my heart with regret.

I could make the same mistakes again,

And watch you slip away on a different night.

I could watch that smile again…

But you make it clear that this is all we are,

Two strangers on our separate quests—

It meant the world to me, but you have forgotten

And I can’t even take a breathe

Without being reminded of how you have forgotten.

Too scared to be angry I hold onto jealousy

But I guess it doesn’t really matter

Because I’m just me.

Tonight, I’m just me.

     DannYetman

www.yetmanpoetry.blogspot.com

Hidden Desires

I can pretend I don’t want it—

To desire what I have been missing.

I can lie and say I don’t want to feel

Something other than the same routine.

I can tell you that I understand

That you will never feel the same,

But when you see me—finally look at me,

Into my eyes and past the man who stands,

You will know what I am holding back—

You will see everything—the longing

The jealousy and the burning angst.

And when I see you glancing back at me

I will forget where I stand—forget the dream.

I can live in denial for as long as it takes,

And push you to the back of my mind

But I won’t ever be able to hide it,

I won’t ever be able to speak

Without the gentle quiver on my lips

That gives away my emotions.

Looking at you leaves a burning image,

One that stays with me when you’re gone.

I can pretend to be satisfied forever—

To be content living alone,

But my hidden desires will resurface—

I can’t hide forever;

Someday I’m going to look you in the eyes.

     DannYetmanwww.yetmanpoetry.blogspot.com

The Descent

At this moment it hurts to breathe,

I don’t want to wake just to feel the same,

My thoughts race but there’s nothing left.

It hurts to look in the mirror—to wear my skin,

Tomorrow is now in the past but still the world

Refrains from noticing there is something wrong.

I can’t seem to hide anywhere without a reminder,

I tried to run away but with each step brought closer.

At this moment I don’t want to move,

I just want to lay here forever as my tears dry.

Let the voices carry me away, as the thoughtless sing—

I want to feel the contrast of pain and ecstasy,

And the descent of joy to sorrow…Maybe back again.

At this moment I want to be anybody,

Anybody in the world but me.

      DannYetman

www.yetmanpoetry.blogspot.com

Older Still

Dark nights far from home still the presence of fear.

One foot then the next, through the cutting wind—

Disappear from the sight of the last familiar face;

And hang onto the thoughts of none.

You would give anything to say you’re lost,

But you’ve walked these streets alone—

Time and time again with your mind left dormant…

You will find your way home again.

Lose your way in the night, lose track of time

Listen to the sound of your heart beating—

And know the fright keeps your feet moving;

Know that this will not be the last night.

You will try to disappear.

       DannYetman

www.yetmanpoetry.blogspot.com 

Your Memory Forever

Honesty is evasive and remains distant forever,

Never will this voice shutter the words told,

Never will we ever grow old.

Hold on to this moment, you won’t get it back—

Your dreams will become reality

And reality will soon be a memory past.

For separate lives come together

Maybe for a moment, maybe forever.

You will never live up to expectations,

So your live your life now,

While it is still an endeavor. 

We Stand Apart

I’ll say I’m sorry until the day I die,

But I can’t forget the look on your face.

It hurts me to hear your goodbyes—

I’m left empty, searching endless

Across the world and back again.

You left me broken, half finished—

You left me questioning myself

And anything I’ve ever believed in.

Upon your return my words will hinder,

Sanity stolen, my eyes are left hazy—

For true beauty stands before me.

Memories shared and memories lost,

Once and for all we stand apart.

       DannYetman

www.yetmanpoetry.blogspot.com