everything I tell you is a lie, and it's ridiculous.
I can't tell you anything; it kills me in every way.
To you, I want to whisper every thought that crosses my mind
but I know you don't care what goes on in my simple mind.
I'll pretend you care what I think; and to myself I'll lie;
you've never cared for me and you tell me that everyday.
Some part of me keeps hoping that you lie (the way that I lie),
after all, I'm fluent in pseudo-truth. What am I saying?
You make me ramble and sound broken. What am I saying?
I want to tell the truth but instead I spit out regret;
I hide my trails well; I make sure you never know where I am.
I've done things that don't make me proud but I won't forget them;
why would I want to forget them? To forget is to regress.
My stories no longer fit together; I must confess.
My stories are simple memories; moments inhuman.
If it takes innocence to show who I am, then naïve I'll be.
I want you to know where I've been, see that I'm just a man;
look to me and watch me bleed, I need you to see me broken;
I can't look at my reflection- I feel I've misspoken.
I think of what's missing; it's suffocating- I concede.
I want you to see me broken; crying in an empty room-
you'll see how human I am, I'm not a machine, I bleed.
It's ridiculous, what I think; the disillusions I live.
You deserve to see me broken; see how I really live.
I want you to know who I am; ask me and we'll reminisce.
If I'm lying, I'm sorry, but there's good in me; it exists.
DannYetman
3 comments:
So much introspective depth lies within these words. Underneath every lie is a bit of truth.
So many individuals find it easier and complacent to accept a lie...if only they knew what truly lay beneath the hard exterior. Never stop telling your truths, even if they are woven like a tapestry among the lies. (Hugs)Indigo
This is beautiful and deep. Loaded with messages on many levels. Your writing is a wonderful expression and a joy to read. It is especially good to see coming from a man. Our culture conditions men not to be emotional, sentimental and -- heavenforbid -- cry or show any tears. So as a woman I find it REALLY encouraging that you are expressing how you feel, whatever that is. I encourage you to keep writing and expressing your feelings.
Don't let anything or anyone in life take that from you. Often as people get older they let their culture, other people, family "responsibilities", faily pressures, work, etc., take away or bury the truest part of themselves. You have a very strong voice.
As you get older I want you to always remember that someone "out there" told you to not let go of this part of yourself...of any part of yourself that is dear to you, that is true and open and vulnerable and earnest.
Through your poetry you contribute to changing the world in positive ways. You encourage others to be human as well. It takes courage to really be ourselves...and to embrace all of who we are, even our mistakes and failings and lies. But when we do this we become more REAL, more of who we REALLY are, and we encourage others to fully claim who they are.
Whether you already know it or not, you are leader not a follower. So always listen to your heart. You will do great things in the world and in the lives of those you come in contact with.
Thank you for sharing and contributing to the goodness in the world through your poetry.
Robin Easton
Thanks, that means a lot (:
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